I am awake at 6 am. Technically, I was woken by my stomach at 5 am. So much is changing as I am learning to listen to my body, to hear what it needs. I decided to start a blog because so much has already changed about my habits and mindset. Cliches I've heard my entire life are suddenly truths that I've learned, such as "It's a lifestyle change, not a diet" and"It's not about the scale, it is the journey." I know these things to be true now, and so much more!
I was a skinny child, teenager, and young adult. I tried to put on weight for years so I wouldn't look like a walking stick. At about 28, things started getting out of control. I yo-yo'd between 180 and 210 lbs for 12 years. A lot happened in those 12 years and now I can sit back and see how life impacted my body. But was it life? Or was it my inability to cope with the big stressors? I see two sides to this coin. Yes, my choices during this time of my life changed my body and added even more pain, embarrassment, and shame to my figurative plate. However, I survived. I have survived things that most people only read about. I've often said if I ever write an autobiography, no one would believe it! Everyone would insist that it was fiction. Three months into this journey, I can confidently say that my body has never failed me, although I have failed it. It has protected me, supported me as I broke through expectations and challenges, and no matter how poorly I've treated it, my body has not let me down. Suddenly the question becomes, What can my body do if I actually give it what it needs? I, for one, am excited to find out!
So here is the breakdown! Notice it isn't a steady decline. There are slopes and inclines. I am learning to embrace this. It really IS a lifestyle change. I'm not perfect and I have slipped into old habits (like soda, french fries, and pizza) once in a while. But most days I am on top of things and as long as I put in the work, a slip up here and there cannot stop me. It may slow down my weight loss, but sometimes I REALLY need some chocolate!! Life is too short to go without chooclate!
So, back to my first line--my stomach woke me this morning. The first sign that my body is making real change is my stomach's intolerance for those old habit foods. Vacationing in Florida, I did pretty well! I wasn't perfect but overall, I stuck to my macros of carbs (5%), healthy fats (70%), and protien (25%). Then came July 4th and I lost my mind. Soda, breads, candy, cupcakes, donuts....ooooooh man! Not just 1 day of this, but 3 or 4 days of wreckless binging on my favs. Additionally, I took a bad fall while in FL and have been unable to walk/jog since June 30. Today is July 11 and I've been firmly back on track for 3 days now. I have been able to dance and walk for these last 3 days as well. I lost the 6 pounds that I had put back on but most of that was in the bathroom! The day I "fall off the wagon", I'm loving life. But the days that follow are painful. My stomach revolts against any bad choice food/soda that has a lot of sugar and carbs. That is ONE way to make a lifestyle change!!
So here I am, starting a blog because I am up with stomach pains. Another day and I should be back to normal. And the next time my craving for a Mt Dew is nearly unbearable, I'm going to read this entry and remind myself to just say no!
I was a skinny child, teenager, and young adult. I tried to put on weight for years so I wouldn't look like a walking stick. At about 28, things started getting out of control. I yo-yo'd between 180 and 210 lbs for 12 years. A lot happened in those 12 years and now I can sit back and see how life impacted my body. But was it life? Or was it my inability to cope with the big stressors? I see two sides to this coin. Yes, my choices during this time of my life changed my body and added even more pain, embarrassment, and shame to my figurative plate. However, I survived. I have survived things that most people only read about. I've often said if I ever write an autobiography, no one would believe it! Everyone would insist that it was fiction. Three months into this journey, I can confidently say that my body has never failed me, although I have failed it. It has protected me, supported me as I broke through expectations and challenges, and no matter how poorly I've treated it, my body has not let me down. Suddenly the question becomes, What can my body do if I actually give it what it needs? I, for one, am excited to find out!
So here is the breakdown! Notice it isn't a steady decline. There are slopes and inclines. I am learning to embrace this. It really IS a lifestyle change. I'm not perfect and I have slipped into old habits (like soda, french fries, and pizza) once in a while. But most days I am on top of things and as long as I put in the work, a slip up here and there cannot stop me. It may slow down my weight loss, but sometimes I REALLY need some chocolate!! Life is too short to go without chooclate!
So here I am, starting a blog because I am up with stomach pains. Another day and I should be back to normal. And the next time my craving for a Mt Dew is nearly unbearable, I'm going to read this entry and remind myself to just say no!
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